So, I make a statement to myself saying I'm going to update things often - and yet I suck at it... Man, I need to stop trying to keep these things up to date.

*Stolen from Bree*

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say To People
1) Its okay to not be perfect. (though I have said this to who I want to say it to, I want them to listen to it)
2) Just leave me the fucking hell alone!
3) Why don't we shove that up your arse and see how you like it then?
4) You might see it like that - but I just can't.
5) Stop telling me how to live my life!
6) I love you.
7) You need to stop drinking. You have a problem.
8) It'll be okay - it'll be okay eventually.
9) Don't leave me.
10) You have no fucking right to say that about me to anyone and I cannot believe you would. You don't know me. You are in no position to say that so just shut the fuck up and NEVER insinuate things about me and my life again.

Nine Things About Myself
1) I sing. Alot. Whenever I'm by myself or think I can do it - I do.
2) I'm kind of in love with a dream.
3) I can't function without atleast one cup of coffee each morning.
4) I take way too long in the shower but thirty seconds to get dressed.
5) I make up imaginary stories in my head and have fake conversations with myself. And sometimes I forget that they weren't real.
6) I often find myself waking up with bruises, cuts and pains and know that I did them to myself on purpose while I was asleep.
7) My music is played loud enough you can hear it across a large busy room when I've got my ear buds in my ears.
8) I sometimes wish I was born a boy.
9) I go to bed after midnight and get up before the sunrises basically everyday. I wake up before the sun - sometimes I talk myself into falling asleep again but not often.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart
1) Be okay with who you are - not over confident and cocky, but not a blubbering pile of insecurities.
2) Like the same music as me and be able to talk about it all with me.
3) Don't think I'm a total psychopath - or atleast don't think its an entirely bad thing.
4) Be able to make me smile like no one else can.
5) Let me pretend that I'm fine and everything is okay - even if it isn't - but when I start yelling at you be completely rational and let me come back to reality.
6) Be able to follow my train of thought for more than 20 minutes.
7) Back me up and make me feel special in a non-retarded sense (retarded if a bad word)
8) Walk up to me when I'm having a rough day and lying with my head down on the table bemoaning my fate holding a coffee (large vanilla almond latte - no sugar) in one hand, a copy of The Umbrella Academy in the other and your favourite hoody tucked under your arm, sit the coffee down infront of me, drape your hoody over my shoulders and sit on the table next to my arms and begin pointing out the inconsistancys of Vanya's eyes but how it could be symbolic of her mental state - like how Storm's eyes change when she uses her powers.


Seven Things That Cross My Mind A Lot
1) Music
2) Slash
3) Flying away
4) My coffee shop
5) The insanity of others
6) Existantiarialism
7) 'could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend'

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep
1) Listen to my music
2) Read to the end of a story or the end of the chapter
3) Check my email
4) Set my alarm
5) Put the animals out
6) Play out various scenarios in my head until I fall asleep

Five Places I Want To Visit
1) London
2) Chicago
3) New Jersey
4) Prague
5) Toronto

Four Things I'm Wearing Right Now
1) Bra
2) Socks
3) Jeans
4) 'I don't hold a grudge, you give me a new reason to hate you everyday' tshirt.

Three Bands That I Listen To Often
1) My Chemical Romance
2) Fall Out Boy
3) Cobra Starship

Two Things I Want To Do Before I Die
1) Have my coffee shop
2) Move to another country for a while (or until I die)

One Confession
1) I hate the world alot less than I seem too - but I find it easier to live being upset at things than to think everything is good and then be proven wrong. If you dislike things and are proven wrong then atleast its a positive - if you like things and are proven wrong its a double negative.